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Sunday, April 08, 2007
 re-constructed blog.

this blog is dead. go to: www.leenswingsaway.blogspot.com for more info. that's all folks. =)


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Sunday, April 02, 2006
 friends are for life, if not forever. =)

happy 19th birthday heng!

yesterday was the first trombone outing ever, cool. jojo, charmaine, daryl and me. ate la mian at marina square. *yummy- saw baby[angeline] on the way! my goodness..if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. we've been talking about meeting up, but we never did for some reasons. eventually we still met! =) i miss her so much, a big hug is a must. hees. ok back to trombone outing, my musical soul mates if there's such a thing. my girls who've been through much hard work with me and of cos mr daryl hor who has always been there for us. ;) nice catching up with them.

next, headed to pasir ris with jahrell and cherie for heng huat's birthday chalet. met amelia later. things weren't going well, had out first and hopefully last ace-J 'not-so-nice conversation' i apologize to heng, yih dar and company for the wrong time and the black face. i had to do what i did, it was too much for me to take. to all my friends: i'll wash my hands of you and never meddle with your business, nag at you or confront you IF you tell me you don't want me as a friend anymore. or else, i'll forever be a busybody and do anything to stop my friends from getting hurt.

to heng: thanks for your understanding and invitation. :)

as for today, swimming with steph finally! but not for long cos' of the heavy rain. -boo! took a lot of funny pictures. haa. ;p love her to bits. =) 3DO camp nearing, excited and nervous. well, what will be, will be. (is this how you put it? sounds weird. lols. )Blog again.


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Sunday, March 26, 2006
 let's shout "tequila"! XD

happy 19th birthday cheng liang!

25/03 [Sat] - last day of matriculation, wanted to chill out with some friends on saturday. but all got something on. so i sms jahrell, so sweet of her to meet up with me so last min. love her so much! ;) took 157 to toa payoh interchange, half asleep through out, then yu ting called me. hp low batt, so i off it. i sms her back, and she replied "huh? u go tpy for what? what time are you meeting us?" i suddenly blur. got no impression that i'm supposed to meet them. then i think for a minute and checked the date. shoot! cheng liang and boo is giving a treat for their birthday celebration. no wonder i got a feeling that i'm supposed to be meeting some people. -_-" i'm so blur. finally reached tpy. feeling all guilty and told jan the truth. she's always so understanding and forgiving. but we still went to mos burger for milk tea and short chat and latest updates. thanks ger. =)

headed to wu zhao pai hai xian @ esplanade, i was first to reach as others were at marina sq. got a table of 9 namely, cindy, yu ting, *boo, *cheng liang, jonathan, danny, martin, my bro and me. we had yummy baby squids, crabs, scallops and pork. you MUST try the white pepper crabs, i think that's why they don't have black pepper crab cos normally people will just go ahead with it. the white pepper crab is really sweet with lotsa spring onions i think. *thumbs up! ;p then christopher join us for tequlia time! hahas. quite nice actually, vanilla vodka is definitely not my glass of alcohol. lols! xp seriously, it taste awful regardless of whatever it's mixed with. boo!

after shots of tequila, all seh seh. we had chocolate cake for celebration before that, but birthday boy, cheng liang vomited 3 times and k.o. at the sofa. boo whole face red like tomato, he don't dare to move much. and for the whole night, i'm the damn maid. cleaning the table, wiping floor, washing cups, washing toilet cos ants were attracted to CL's vomit of chocolate cake and previous drinks. -.-" but all and all, what matters is that everyone have fun. :) that's all. hees.


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Thursday, March 23, 2006
 i rowed a dragon boat! ;)

happy 19th birthday yen!

back from school. feeling all burnt. for the first time in my life, i row a dragon boat at our very own NP's Regatta. it's organized by NP dragon boat club, it's a competition open for all clubs/associations in NP. so i was one of those representing school of ICT. *proud* =) Morning 10 plus, Mr Andrew teach us how to row a dragon boat using a big stick of newspaper as paddles. lols. =p then, we headed towards kallang river. piangs! all the other clubs/associations all so muscular and big, but we are opposite cos it's a very last min thing, so everyone in my team came all over the school of ICT, never bond at all. anyway, we still went on for the competition, our lecturers made us proud by coming in first in the qualifying round. *round of applause* :D

when it comes to our turn, it is quite exciting. things are looking on the bright side at first, but we still came in last eventually. it really isn't as easy as we thought, a lot of synchronization and bonded spirit needed. still wana thank all mr andy, mr brendon, mr andrew and han xiong for all the encouragement and help. it is an valuable opportunity, i mean when will you ever get to row a dragon boat with 19 people other than joining the club. -grins- finally go back school and do matriculation stuff, then finally here, at home feeling damn tired. orh orh liao. nites.


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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
 a surprise from japan. and MORE surprises! =)

20/03 [Mon] - starting of IHP of the week as usual. but got a sms from cheng liang to go out with the others. a surprise from japan, it's yu ting who came back from japan! cheeky her, keep from everyone just to give us a surprise. i miss her! =) after signing out, straightaway rush to bugis to meet them. while walking, i thought i saw someone like steph, but then i thought i was thinking too much. but wait a min! that is rini sitting beside her, so it's them! lissa came shortly. ohh..i miss them so much too! [there's always a lot of people on 'i miss you' list lols! ;p] so there it is, steph, rini, lissa, cheng liang, boo, yu ting, peggy, janice, cindy and my bro. i'm blesssed with friends. :)
steph, rini, lissa went off later.

the rest of us did nothing but keep eating!! -_-" first, it's wantan mee @ sunshine plaza,[another surprise! i met ah gong jeremy and callen! so long never see them ever since their attachment and my IHP. glad that i got a chance to chat with them, er...u can expect that i miss them too. hehes. ;)] then it's rocher beancurds[btw, i saw celebrity chef, anthony bourdain! so excited. lols. he was really tall, sad to say only janice n i know who he is. hello? does anyone watch travel and living channel? hahas! xp] finally, it's dim sum @ shui chun. i'm getting fat for sure! but anything for you ting-ma. =D went home after that. what a day full of surprises! meeting up with all the people i miss, i'm grateful. =)

21/03 [Tue] - had a small meeting @ club house. then we went ahead to siew yen's chalet with weiqi, vivian, hui yuan, jiayi and tiffany. thanks yen for inviting, hope you like the pressie! ;) eat, chat, take photos, mahjong. yen's boyfriend and friends are really kind to serve us with food. arigato. thanks yen also, love ya! -hugs-


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Sunday, March 19, 2006
 i love ace-J. =)

outing with my ace-J girls.

18/03 [Sat] - met cherie at tpy for lunch, we ate BK. for first time, i ordered bbq turkey bacon. i always have the impression that i can only eat the chicken sandwich, fish burger and chicken whooper cos' all others are beef. -.-" lols. but anway, met with amelia at united square cos' she wanted to rent storybook. next, we headed to town and met janice there. and we are all complaining about her super long hair. haas! =p we took neoprints..after dunno how many donkey years. it was nice, love it! =)

as for janice's hair, i can't believe it. we went to chapter 2 @ marina square for her to get a haircut. while she's cutting hair, the 3 of us walked around. beginning to love that place, cos' it has got everything from all kinda shops to food loft, most importantly it's near my house. hees. ;D finally, we headed back to town(i have no concession darn it! -.-") but i'll go anywhere as long as i can meet my girls, love them too much. :) we had subway! yeah! my absolute favourite healthy food. ;)

talking about subway, i've recruited a lot of subway kakis. woohoo! at first only got baby.shirlyn. she's on attachment now, so no one accompany me to satisfy my craving. but NOW! hahas..more more, tiffany, janice, cherie, cheng liang..not bad right. now i'm gonna teach you how to order k, so you all can go try.

  1. look at the menu and see what you want, i recommend turkey breast, ham and bacon melt. it's no. 6 on the menu.
  2. then decide what bread you want, i recommend honey oats.
  3. after which, choose the length of bread between 6-inch or footlong. normally it's 6 inch for 1 person, if you're a big eater can order footlong which double 6 inch.
  4. next, choose your vegetables. i normally put everything except pickles and olives.
  5. then, choose what sauce you wanna put on your sandwich. i recommend sweet onion sauce and honey mustard. -2 thumbs up!- :D
  6. if you're ordering a meal, choose either chips or cookies. that's all. enjoy it! =)
subway should pay me for advertising. hehes!

19/03[Sun] - went cherie's house for dinner with amelia and janice. another ace-J outing. =) we ate pizza hut, which arrived 1 hour after we ordered. lols. but it was really a nice dinner with cherie's family. we chatted, joke around, watched television and played with dori and nimo, cute and funny dogs. XD in short, we had a great time! cherie, thanks for the meal and hospitality. :)

really tired now, IHP tml again. next week is another busy week packed with meetings and events. bless me people. =) nites.


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Friday, March 17, 2006
 personal note..

have you ever thought being a superstar, and by that i don't mean your common celebrity, or those who went on television and hoping to be noticed. what i mean is those with outstanding talent, famous for years and generations, those with power and x-factor. what about other extraordinary human being that you admired and envied, the super heros in your heart. (i.e. people like michael jackson, ray charles, jay chou n etc.)

have you ever notice? when heaven give you something so powerful that makes you shine from the crowd, he will take something away from you that most of time, either cause you severe mental/physical pain or traumatize you. go check on those 'super' beings, how many came from proper happy family, how many came from broken family, how many had a normal childhood..this is only fair.

stop envying others, be happy that you are normal and cherish your simple life. i want a simple life. too much complications. good night. =)


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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
 boohoo..

was sick for the past few days, over the weekend. diaos. -.-" anyway, friday was jianda's birthday! happy birthday! went for movie, Big Momma House 2. XD such a funny show, i enjoyed it even though i'm having body ache as i was having fever. -.-" we actually planned to go eat dinner @ seoul garden, but after much thinking and discussion i went home instead. cos' it'll be a waste of money if i don't eat much and i was feeling sore all over. btw, heri did a very funny story of that day, please kindly refer to http://lahlohleh.blogspot.com for more info. ;)

anyway, i quickly recovered from fever on saturday, just when i thought i was fine. i took a cold shower. straight after the shower, my body start aching again, and my fever shot up to 38.5 degrees. damn! skipped school on monday to see doctor. cheng liang and i watched The Shaggy Dog @ PS. it's average, but still funny..could be better if the dog's mouth could move along when the actor speak. the bunnies were super cute. lols! ;D finally met with janice! woohoo! i miss her so much..ate pasta mania and chat for hours. this saturday gonna have a ace-J outing. i miss my girls. =)


i'm gonna stop here..cos' my english for this entry sucks. lols. ciaos!


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Thursday, March 02, 2006
 woohoo..

22/02/06 [Wed] - Happy 19th Birthday Stephie!! hmmms..i know you've been through a lot to get this b'day party going, i'm so proud of you and i hope you enjoy yourself as much as we did! thanks for everything..a kiss for you! -muacks- :p well..went over to steph's house for bbq. bev, lissa, filan, rini, lyd and 4/1 guys[phyoe, boon huat, jason, anthony, darren, joshua, aaron tan] were all there. =) b'day queen was all in white.. *sweet* ;) chat, laugh, eat, drink, photo, bbq n etc etc. a great night. then bev and steph finally manage to drag/convince me to go M.O.S with them. darn! they use the 'it's my birthday' trick.. -bleahs!- but anyway, it was really fun, saw wen chun n co..da r&b room was packed with people, we could hardly walk. -.-" then we finally dance for 4 hours straight without realising it. good exercise for our body. i saw a lot of people dancing in very funny moves, so we just giggles. lols. but i can't dance well too, so pardon me..i'm just moving on the spot, having fun. =D went home in cab, showered, soaked my feet and still manage to do homework (*note: time was 5 in the morning), slept for 2 hours and went for ISDT extra lesson in the morning. xD

well, my exams ended yesterday..yeahs! but starting next week monday, i have to do my IHP[in-house project] which mean i'll still be going to school to do my project, no holidays for me. but i must persevere for the next few months until the project end! then i'm left with 1 more sem of normal curriculum before i graduate. that's so fast! i can still remember my first day in poly, christine and i don't even know where's lecture 22. lols. better start planning on what to do after graduation. that's all folks. nites. :)


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Thursday, February 16, 2006
 lovely times..

heyo! finally back again. hehes. ;) i know my blog is super dead, but wana thank you guys for still tagging. *arigato* =) just came back from school, even though i have no lessons today. -.-" however, there's a SC photo taking session. i don't wana miss it, cos it they matters to me so i still went to school. it took quite a long time, but it turns out good i think. i love my SC no matter what, regardless of how much unhappiness or bad happenings because i learnt from it and also because of those, i've learnt much more about people, made many friends and had lots of fun! =D to me, that's what counts. head to BTP with yen, xiao dou ya, si peng, yong jia and jetson and had pizza hut for dinner. *bloated* getting fatter..hahas! ;D

yesterday had no lesson too, but rushed all the way to school to hand up VID research n sketch book. -.-" finally went kbox after ages, with simon, heri, jianda, yong jia, junjie and ivan. soooo long never sing, all of us sounds kinda weird actually..lols! but at least we had fun. :) yups..that's it.

10th Feb '06 [Fri] - the last IS lesson, woohoo! headed home and met up with lissa, rini and steph! super long never see them, miss my sweethearts! had dinner @ marina sq. ate chinese la mian, really nice. we chatted, laughed, pour sorrow, took pics..the night couldn't get any better. no matter how busy we are, i still love my girls a lot. please take care. =)

14th Feb '06 [Tue] - hmmms..another vday of freedom. yups. that means no bf, but i'm just happy the way it is..hanging out with my girlfriends and have fun. :) ISDT class in the morning only like 7 people came, and the funny thing is, there is only 1 guy attached in my class. hahas! ;D then it's 3hrs break before SA lesson, the guys 'zha bo' and didnt tell sal and me! -.-" luckily shirlyn came, SA lesson was quite fun actually..we spent 1 hr studying and another hr chatting about anything except SA (e.g. marriage, relationship, my tutor's bio lesson and his jc life and etc..) kinda fun with a tutor and 3 students. lols.

went home and change before meeting with amelia and cherie, so long never see them. what to do, the past few months have been busy with assignments, really feel guilty for neglecting my friends, hope they know i miss them and will always love them. so glad ace-j met up for girls' night out. well..for janice, i hope she have fun too. =) 3 of us had dinner at food court, cos' it's the only place with seats, everywhere else was flooded with couples. again..we chatted, laughed, update each other. glad we can meet up. the perfect vday for me, as long as my friends are there with me.

ok. long entry. read slowly. take care all.


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Friday, January 27, 2006
 happy lunar new year everyone!

hmms..this sem is coming to an end in a few weeks time. 2 more projects to go. 2 papers for exams. FYP and then graduation? lols. it's gonna be a long, stressful and tiring road ahead, but i gotta go through it anyway. will put in my best, i promised myself. =) but i'm pretty sure it'll be gone in a flash, i must strive for the best! :D
anyway, some updates:
  • laptop hard disk crashed, everything's gone. i really want to throw it away! *pissed* already tried my best to keep it simple and clean and it still crash. sent for repair for more than 1 week. i'm gonna 'fully utilised' it in any ways i can.
  • finally finish my VID2 project, breakdown quite a few times. damn! i'm getting weak. still glad i did a fairly good job for a period of 4 days, thanks to my lappy for crashing at the 'right' time. 1 golden advice: always and i mean ALWAYS backup your stuff, you never know when thosedamn technology turn their back on you.
  • went to old folks' home for the very first time to do my event management. it wasn't very successful i would said but at least some old folks enjoyed it and that's what that matters. =) was a lil' nervous and scared but it turns out ok i guess. hope they have a happy year ahead. much thanks to sipeng, my andy and everyone invloved.
chinese new year coming. tml is chu xi le. steamboat is like a once a year tradition in my family, yummy yummy! ;D this year is a little different i guess, no time to really shop for clothes and rushed for projects until wana breakdown, da mood not really there. but thanks to my parents, i think i can still enjoy it like i used to. lols. they are just so excited and thrilled about it. good for them. ;)

well..actually nothing much to blog about. i think you guys out there reading, must be really bored. lols. i really wana change my blog skin. darn! nv really had the time and determination. =p okok. wish everyone a very happy chinese new year, may you guys be blessed with good health and happiness always. to all my friends out there: miss ya, love ya and forever wana see ya. -hugs- gong xi fa cai. ;D


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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
 a new year, many new hopes. =)

heyy!! school re-open again. ya i know, sian. but anyway it's the 2nd term of the semester. after this sem ends, it's IHP. more projects - vid2, ba2, isdt but what the heck. should have expected nothing less since there's no common test. for the past 2 weeks of holiday:-
_*finally got my ubin cycling trip done with a lot of support from fellow sc - thanks guys!.
_*x'mas eve with cherie, janice and sharon -lotsa fun and laughters.
_*met up with steph and casilda for movie -The Family Stone will make you tear and laugh, no storyline though. thanks cas for da present.
_*got my hair rebonded, waiting for it to grow longer. met with cheng liang for Narnia cos' all others pang seh me -thanks CL. narnia was nice with great scenery, nice effect, lovely characters..it is like a mini LOTR, but the battle scene was not impactful enough bcos' kids just don't enough power and the 'fierce' spirit. but should watch, really.

one satisfactory point, i got lotsa sleep, 10 hours everyday for a week. hahas! =D well..laptop battery running low. shall stop here. =)


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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
 i fear the death of my loved ones more than my own. -for beloved *sobee-

i can never forget. morning 8.50 am - my mum come in my room cycling and waking all of us up, saying.."beebee si le.." my bro, sis and i immediately jump out of bed. when we saw her, her body was cold and slightly harden. her eyes were half opened in the lazy & tired way just like usual times. i can never forget the way she look at us, she looked so sad as if she's telling us she don't bear to leave us. today is a really tough day. i just keep tearing when i think of her, i was crying in the mrt, in the club house, while walking on my way home. this is just so sudden. -grief- but the memories of her will always stay with my family because she is part of us. i will treasure my lebee and remember my sobee.
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_i love her forever.


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Monday, December 19, 2005
 what did i do wrong?

- 17th December' 05 -
slept till late. met up with jojo, ting-ma, janice together with bro. miss them lots. walking around, enjoying the x'mas festive. mocha, white chocolate, chicago cheesecake, rather interesting and stupid conversations. it has been ages since i enjoy such simple fun. they made my night. =) jo & ah shu dun be unhappy about work, that's our society, learn from it. i'll always be with you.

-18th December' 05-
'recki' 2 @ pulau ubin. i missed the first one, so i'm excited about this. junior, jiayi. amy, vivian, si peng, yong jia, edward, pei wen, weiqi, siew yen and me. had fun exploring and experiencing a very different island life. fed mosquitoes, poor vivian my heart ache with the bites on your legs, please take good care of yourself :) nice lunch, cute dogs and happy crowds. tiring uphill and siok downhill, love the bum boat rides too.

i am wrecked to my soul. pimples breaking out, ulcers in my mouth, sore hands and legs. this is how sore my hands look, feels like blue black when you exert pressure on it. and also my swollen and blue black leg. how i wish i can take picture of muscle aches.

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pathetic isn't it. guess some of you, my friends, will laugh at me and say, "who can you blame, you ask for it. join council is your decision." trust me, i knew that long time ago, that i'm finding more work for myself. well..excuse me for being so 'active' and 'over-enthu', cos' all i want is to be useful, yes USEFUL! i've been on low-profile for all my life bcos' i'm ashame of myself, my loved ones were ashame of me. i'm desperate to break through. i'm in poly now, no more a kid. go school, study, go home, pass exams..is not the life i want anymore. all i need is some encouragement and support when i'm exhausted or troubled. but i got mockery, denial and disregard. thanks a lot. so much for treasuring friendship. treasuring friendship is the only thing i'm truly proud of, guess i am just a fool.

this is the time when i'm thinking, once again, about die and bye. i am tired, i need to love myself more.


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Friday, December 16, 2005
 forgive me.

stuck in school now, there's a briefing @ 5.30 later. just finished my BA assignment. after hours of staring into my laptop, my eyes are sore and my body is exhausted, that explain why i seldom go msn. i hate staring into the computer screen. i think i'm going blind soon, my eye vision is getting blurrer. i never want to be an IT professional, i cant work with stiff neck n shoulders and staring into the computers all day long. finally 2 weeks break is coming but still got PM and VID assignment, so wad break is this? no idea, ask my school. but one thing to be happy about is, christmas is coming.. :) and also i wana congrats many of my friends for the new romance. =)

recently one of my friends seems to be pissed at me and other friend. she's not the first one. i know seldom tag at people's blog or go msn. yups. i'm that bitch that always put away or busy mode and get busy with everything, neglecting my friends. energy drained my council work and studies, i know i asked for it, please dont rub it in if you're my friend. i just want a goal in my life, if you cant accept it then i'm sincerely sorry. there's nothing i can do, i've tried my best to go out with every group of friends. have you all realise that when you guys are out with your own friends, i never complain because i'm perfectly fine with it, cos' everyone has different group of friends and i STRONGLY believe that true friends don't drift easily.

forgive me for not spending enough time with you guys.


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Friday, December 09, 2005
 what a crazy day! =D

heyy! had a crazy day yesterday doing nothing but indulging in food and movies! ahh..heaven. ;) BA lessons from 9-12, went for lunch with baby.sal and da guys @ SIM. had grilled chicken with bbq sauce, vege and fries. -bloated- (O_o) went lido as planned for our small lil' movie marathon with sal. :D watched Prime @ 2.05pm first - gosh! now i understand why jan said it should be rated as M18 cos' there was quite a lot of scenes showing them 'making love', however da guy is quite cute at certain angle and the story was hilarious and meryl steep was good! -thumbs up- i really admire Uma Thurman, although she's not considered as that pretty compared to other hollywood celeb. but she's has got that charm, height and character. love it! ;D

next thing we know, we got 2 more tix for harry potter and the goblet of fire. -grins- hoho! cant blame me, i've been deprived of movies for quite a while, and it's a big deal for movie fanatic like me. =p but the movie didnt start until 5.30pm so i conveniently suggested cheesecake, hehes. and sal agreed, woohoo! my cheesecake kaki. XD had an oreo one @ McCafe, really yummy. and guess what are we waiting for? free coffee @ starbucks! hahas. we are pigs, but we couldn't care less. bcos' we've decided to really just enjoy for one day before more projects. :) so after cheesecake, we went up and checked on the queue, luckily it wasn't that long and thanks baby.shirlyn for informing us. ;D we both got peppermint mocha, sal got the ice blended and i got the hot one for my irritating throat. -.-" moving on, we went to the counter and bought a regular popcorn, i know i'm going to get fat but it is times like these when i'm happily getting fat and not feeling guilty about it! hahaz! XD we 'smuggled' our drinks in our bags with the popcorn and happily enjoying ourselves.

well..the movie was great, love the effects as usual and this time it includes more actions which is cool. actually i just enjoyed it without thinking much, hehes. went home and slept. no school today! it couldn't get any better. sleep, eat and tv. i'm desperate for some exercise now. >.< supposed to go school @ 5pm for sports challenge, captain ball. but we didn't have enough people, reasons: sick, mc, projects, deadlines, meeting.. well you know the usual. (-_-") shall stop here. more work, projects and movies coming soon! 2 weeks break is nearing. :D take care everyone.


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Monday, December 05, 2005
 movie misses.

hmms..i miss my movies! so many reports and assignments..vid1 jus completed, vid2 is out! sa, pm, ba & event management. lols. no common tests, 2 weeks break..but dey wan us dead before go for break, woohoo! we can do it guys, ganbatte neh! =D and SC event, pulau ubin trip..it must be fun regardless of how many people go. ok back to movies..i wana watch:
-Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
-Aeon Flux
-The Chronicles of Narnia
-Prime
-Chicken Little
-maybe King Kong

i must work hard and reward myself with these movie treats during my 2 weeks break. =) anyway, ICT Superstar 2005 has ended..i think it's quite enjoyable but there's still tons to learn. proud of all da sub comms. meeting this wed. well..luckily i'm back, alive n kicking. but i'm worried for da 2 babies, 1 seems so drained of energy and life, another 1 cant seems to focus. gers, buck up..it's week6, hopefully everything will be better aft da 2 weeks break. gtg for now. buaiz. oh! before i forget. Happy belated birthday Si Peng! Happy early Birthday Edward! and Happy Birthday Papa!(my real father! ;p)


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Tuesday, November 22, 2005
 i'm climbing back. bear with me ya.

heys.. just came back from ICT Student Council Investiture 2005. it was simple and sweet. thanks candy, yongjia n all da subcomm. for this! =) went crazy after that, sing, act, pretend, dance[candy o n l y XD], crap, language crisis..omg la. laugh and shout until no voice, really went bonkers! =p i'm tired but at least i'm happy. that's what i'm looking for, and not busy busy busy, stress stress stress and no happiness and fun. well, just kana tortured last sunday morning, 12am. wanted to sleep early for da ubin trip. who knows stomach ache until very jialat. tried to sleep, but can't and in da end vomited twice, abount 5/8 of da basin was filled. thought everything shld be fine but n o! stomach ache still and i was so tired already. can you imagine feeling so exhausted and sleepy until you can just knock out but yet you cant really sleep cos' ur tummy hurts. it's a torture i tell you! finally diarrheou twice, and slept at 4am. -.-" dunno whether it's food poisoning. but anyway my dear discovery, i'm so sorry i missed da ubin trip.

well, didn't really update about a lot of stuff before the last entry full of frustrations and rantings. like meeting up with Rini back from hongKong, glad you had fun. and of cos' Shanti back from melbourne, miss ya ger! =) and oso meeting baby.Angeline and LaoDa after a super long time! >.< i miss them so much, esp baby la! had so much fun, cant wait to go out again. plus 2 enjoyable chalets, both at aloha loyang. one is SC on 23.10.05 [was sick a g a i n-_-" ]and T-EST friends on 5.11.05. i saw ah gong Marcus finally, as humourous and crazy as ever. Alvin the rare 'buddha' who you can only meet on rare occasions, haaz! ;p Clarise mummy, ah pa, gan ma, Emily mei mei, MingHui ah jie, Chong lao da, Lynn, Geepin, Jennifer, Johnson as annoying as ever. always bicker with me! xp and also Alex, Edmund, David..! miss them all alot, great gathering! nice food. hoho! hmms..thinking of da good times make mi feel so happy and content. i hope i can stop feeling depressed and devastated i dare say, and start to buck up for my studies, SC events and my life.

p.s. ah pa. thanks for sms-ing mi after reading my blog, i'm so glad and touched i have my friends. thanks for ur concern. u take care too k.


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Thursday, November 17, 2005
 LEAVE ME ALONE!!

nothing's right. sick for a month. no drive, no energy n o t h i n g! people keep bugging me for this and that. made wrong decision, assignments flooding in. mum's nagging the nicest way she can, but i lose my temper. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME???!!!! just fucking send me to hell! it ain't better now. stop pissing me off. get off my back!!! if anyone dare to comment on my entry, just fuck off. people can't have any personal space? youth can't realise their anger by writting??! what do you want from us? suicide? mental hospital? may all these come true. at least it make someone happy. practically dragging myself to live my damn life everyday. i'm just pissed at myself. w a d e v a.


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Sunday, October 23, 2005
 fly away kite.. drunk friendly souls..

heys all.. yesterday was a meaningful day.. early in the morning, went to do voluntary work with eSther dear.. =p met up @ paya lebar mrt with other volunteers and headed towards ASPN (Association for Persons with Special Needs - Centre for Adults). participants are adults with the child's mind..innocent and simple. was kinda scared when i first met them..some are bigger size than me and most are older than me. but we still manage to interact. they are very friendly people. they sang and clapped along in the bus.. =) my buddy was Zana. she's 23 and about 6 inches taller than me. a very active ger, keep holding my hand all along.. :) kite flying @ bukit timah nature reserve was fun and relaxing..what a nice place to have picnic and fly kites.. i must have an outing there someday..lols. our kites flew way high and far.. my first kite flying experience, a fun and meaningful one..the participants had fun too. had lunch and head back home. thanks wanXin for introducing. ;)

was really tired, went for a nap and couldn't wake up in time to meet ace-J, lucky they went for a movie so i had more time to get prepared and headed to town. intend to go chinaBlack but our dear hengHuat were in berms n slippers[not his fault..he had soccer training earlier on..] so we somewhere near paradiz center and had soya beancurd..*yummy* while waiting for hengHuat. yihDar was with us. =) woohoo! moulmein gathering, they are all my primary school classmates k..so happy to go out together with them again. :D went for pool and arcade..and then some cup noodles, bottles of liquor and memories of good old days over chatting sessions. lols. hope this isnt too bad for a b'day celebration jan. cab home as usual and orh orh. -.-zZzz..


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Thursday, October 20, 2005
 hmms..

firstly,

HAPPY
18th
BIRTHDAY
JANICE TAN! *muacks* ^.^

woohoo! finally watched corpse bride yesterday..quite a nice show, love the music and the effects[as usual..^-^] esp the last part where emily turned into small, white beautiful butterflies..you can really feel that sweet freedom. =) thanks chengLiang for accompanying mi. met up Lissa after the show, miss her lots! so long nv see her.. ;) walk around and bought a pair of jeans at bossini..really cheap and nice. [i sounds like auntie rite.. rite. haas! xp] thanks sa for that lobang! ;D met jAnice and jRayden for dinner @ cine..had lotsa fun n laughters, we were crazy.. -.-" and then went to buy liquor..but jan was 40 mins away from her b'day..lols. but i'm over 18 so everything is cool. headed to bishan and stayed @ the void deck near jRayden's house.. talking rubbish again with sHaron on the phone..lols. poor ger.. =D count down to jAnice's birthday and waa laa..! finally the youngest ger in ace-J has turned 18! *hugs- so happy to be with her till the last min. and thanks for the drink, it smells like cough syrup..haas! XD cab home and that's about it. :)


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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
 sore legs!! ahh!! -.-"

heys.. woohoo! finally got my sleep today..yups. just stayed at home, watch some tv, eat, do a lil' housework and sleep a l o t! ^_^ i love my bed! love my home! =D anyway, worked last sunday..man! i'll never forget this experience.. worked with siewYen, weiQi, amy, jiaYi, junior, & siPing[OopS! i mean SiPeng xp]. wore my court shoes with no options as i dun have any black shoes.. -.-" it's like a thanksgiving dinner @ ACS barker.. it was a bad experience cos' :-
1. wore a super-size ugly looking shirt
2. court shoes were killing me! tearing my skins of my feet.
3. the place super cramp and the floor super slippery.
4. the 'in-charge' was pervertic..
5. worked so hard at the expense of my feets, only got $20+
6. end up with 3 BIG b l i s t e r s on my foot!
i usually dont complaint that much..but this is exception. thanks to mr LohYongJia.. i know it's not your fault, but what a bad recommendation! -_-" now i feel better.. ;D nvm la hor..u always accused me of scolding you, so this time is no exception too. =p

went out with Casilda, peiSin and Steph yesterday.. did nothing much..walk around, eat and took pics.. passed Casilda her birthday pressie..hope you like it. :) well..gonna watch Tim Burton's Corpse Bride tomorrow..woohoo! Blog again. nites..


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Thursday, October 13, 2005
 where can my tears roll?

heys..yups, back from JB, back from poly forum. had lotsa fun and unexpected "takeaway" i was reluctant to go..but i'm glad i went. it was fun, a great learning experience & gotta meet alot of other people, learn new stuff..new bonding, new friendship. simply happy. =) somehow i just throw away all my insecurities and just do my thing, as in i bother to volunteer myself for presentation [i fear public speaking like nobody's business, in front of so many good speaks some more..-.-"] i always feel inferior when there's new faces around, cos' i always feel they are better than me in every aspect.. but i realise if i dont open up, i'm not gonna learn, not gonna have fun..so i did my best! i'm proud to say that. i gave ideas during discussion regardless of whether people are listening anot, volunteer myself to present, interact with other members.. to other people these are normal things, to me, it's not easy at all.. i guess luck is on my side too, my sub-theme is a lovable, funny and friendly bunch! ;) really glad i'm in team 2..you guys rocks! *thumbs up*

basically, it's all interaction and discussion sessions about national issue, my sub theme is about Engaging the Youths. i think we did well for the presentation, hopefully tmr @ closing ceremony everyone will enjoy it. ;D well, because of rehearsal, there isnt much leisure..1 game of bowling, then slack around..the room was nice[sofitel resort] big and cosy.. =D well, back home today..got some updates about friends, feel so bad that i'm not there for them when they need a listening ear..and 'neglecting' my friends, not having enough time for them..i'm so so sorry you guys. cant acc amelia out, cant go out with my babies, my sc buddies & sisters, sec sch friends n all.. it's like i'm contradicting myself, i'm spending my time wisely on meaningful activities, learn new things and know new friends..i enjoy it no matter how tired i am, but not enough time for my good old friends..

i seriously feel like crying when they i see them typing, "i miss you.", "i miss eileen." cos' the fact is i really miss them A LOT. maybe you think i'm too dramatic but you have no idea how it feels to be like me, just like i have no right to critisize others cos' i dunno wad izzit like to be anyone else. this is one of those times when i feel like i need someone called boyfriend for support or drop dead and the hell with the rest of the world. haiz..i think i should go sleep, tomorrow will be brand new day. take care all..

to my qi: u are a brave girl, sorry for not being there when you needed someone. take care ya..-hugs-


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Saturday, October 08, 2005
 sick of this life..ganbatte please!

heys..really sick of going here and there.. in case many of you duno, i'm that kind of person that prefer to rot at home and do nothing..i love my bed n house! i am a p i g! i like to watch tv and sleep..but cant cos' i'll get fat in no time..lols. XD after my leadership training camp..i got my poly forum, super busy can..no matter how much i sleep, it never seems to be enough.. =( i'm like physically and spiritually drained! just feel like staying at home for the rest of the holiday! >.< no time for my friends, my family and myself.. no matter how fun or interesting the events are..i just can't put in my heart & soul in it.. the thing is, i miss all my friends and not to mention, i'm leaving home again next tues..i'm a h o m e l y person i admit! :D always packed with meetings, camps n events actually make my life more meaningful, but then again there's no point if i cant focus 100% , ahh! cant stand myself..whinning like a baby! eileen..please be strong, i can do it! i'm gonna do it to my best cos' my friends and family will want me to enjoy whatever i'm doing also.. jia you bah everyone! oh btw..got back my result, not as good as last sem..but i did my best so no regrets.. =)

to those who are upset/disappointed over their results: i know you all cant help but to think about it, however you can do nothing about it also..so let's buck up and do better next sem k! ;) ganbatte!

to all my friends: so sorry..i'm so packed with stuff and cant go out with you guys..i miss each and everyone of you! dont get angry k..i'll squeeze time out no matter what. take care ya..-hugs-


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Friday, October 07, 2005
 i'm back..but i'm going soon a g a i n..

hey all! yups..i'm back frm my leadership training camp in malaysia[jeram besu] it will be an experience that i'll never forget..too much excitement, emotions and fun! :D this entry could be a 1000 words essay, but it'll defeat the purpose for this entry if i do write an essay cos' no one will read it! ;) shall write it in point form like ms candy low.. xp

day 0..2 Oct'05
-went kbox [finally] with junior, siewYen, tang & renHao..had fun!
-my 1st time staying over in school..
-mac for supper [fattening -.-"]
-playing games, fooling around, heart-to-heart chats for da whole night ;p
-everyone seems to get sore throat and falling sick soon..

day 1..3 Oct'05
-damn tired cos' stayed up all night for day 0..
-had interesting n funny cheer before setting off..
-never spent so many hours in a bus before..
-everyone dozed off uncomfortably..
-stopped for toilet breaks and lunch @ segamat
-den continued sleeping..
-reached our resort finally..
-mosquitoes start attacking! hAaZ!
-had dinner, gotta know our guides/trainers
-played traffic jam games, had fun cracking brains..
-finally orh orh time but ms tangx2 couldnt get over the ants..dont worry, nth to pai seh about..everyone have phobia or fears.. ;)
-called mummy and zZzz..

day 2..4 Oct'05
-exciting day! activities start rolling..woohoo! =p
-water confidence..phew! first time..i must admit i was scared too! but got over it..proud of myself and everyone else that got over it.. *thumbs up*
-flying fox for the 1st time of my life..woohoo! really fun..love it! 10sec was too short.. ;p
-water rafting..oso the first time of my life..never gonna forget it! =)
-den lunch and hrs of rest..
-dinner and night walk..
-interesting insects..angie has the best sight! =D
-spiders' sparkling eyes in da dark, biggest ants i've ever seen n scorpions..
-solo drop..freaking out, but did it..
-called mummy again and zZzz..

day 3..5 Oct'05
-breakfast and leave resort, heading taman negara..
-clear up thoughts for a while..
-cycle and cycle for hours..on sandy roads with cow dungs everywhere..
-rest and this time yen scared me..vomitted, fainted and cried, again no worries..i think i'll cry too if i'm in your position.. =)
-continued cycling..love those adorable village kids waving @ us.. :)
-down slopes was super shiok, up slopes was super tiring n sian..like a roller coaster ride.. :D
-finally completed cycling..went to hotel and head to waterfall..
-magnificent view with cooling water..nice for my sun burnt skins.. >.< -caught in da rain..shivering in bus -showered and finally the farewell dinner we've all waited for..yummy 8 courses meal.. =D -my table had 6 BIG bowls of rice..shocking for me! hAas! XD -chatting session with dept and other members..certainly learnt alot abt them.. =)

day 4..6 Oct'05
-called mummy again..missed home so much!
-board train home @ 1plus in da morning
-my first ever train ride..woohoo! nice and cosy.. ;)
-guilt caught me even in my sleep..hAaz! XD
-reached s'pore finally..
-had mac breakfast with most of sc..
-head school unwillingly.. =(
-cab home..

i really learnt a lot from this camp..about some sc members, myself and other new stuff..really gonna miss the adventure.. i hope all the sc members will appreciate it and learn new things about others and themselves. =) this type of training camp doesnt come along easy..requires a lot of coordination, planning, effort, communications n etc etc.. wana thank everyone for taking care of me, the guides, brendon & andy n of cos' siewYen and candy..i wouldn't have enjoy myself so much without you gers! :) i cant remember much abt any bad things that happened, just wana keep the good memories inside me, i love sc! ;) sad thing is i'm going to malaysia again next tues till thurs..sianz. blog again.


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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
 this is the wrong time to joke, act pitiful, act cute..

heyas..yups! sick again..@_@ all started with sore throat, then flu and now with coughing adding on..this is not it. watched brothersGrimm today with steph, bev and chengLiang..totally disappointed.. i must admit i'm a sucker for fantasy type of movies..but for this, storyline was boring[can hardly catch what they are saying, and didnt bother to cos' it wasnt interesting..], plot was jus a combination of da different types of fairytales[cinderalla, the little red riding hood, sleeping beauty n etc..] with a lil' twists here and there..just wasnt catchy enough. well..i have no right to criticize others' work and their efforts. at least the settings were good..love da effects as usual. ;) and then some more disappointments came by..i just do not know what's wrong with you guys?! think we are not good enough for you guys.. think you can just push us around and be irresponsible just because we are trying to be nice and understanding to accommodate to your needs/emotions in every possible way we can.. then you are W R O N G! i swear i will be nasty if you cross my line..this is to everyone, i mean it.


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Monday, September 26, 2005
 we're going to the zoo zoo zoo, what about you you you? ;D

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY s a l e h a! =)

woohoo! went zoo after a very long time..cant even remember the last time i went there, and apparently i'm not the only one cos' some of my friends havent been there for more than 10 years. c'mon dude, time to move on..it has changed quite a bit. ;) was sick..but no choice, it's baby's birthday..so mus go! =p had lotsa fun..let's see who went.. heri, ivan, simon, jianda, jeremy, sutha[thanks 4 da 50% discount tix =)], bun, yip, adam, yong jia n of cos birthday ger..s a l e h a! :) first time in my life, i've touched a snake..i'm damn scare of snakes, da cold, scaly skins n dat terrifying eyes.. x_x but i touched a small one, da skin was really smooth, dat's why people target it to make bags n stuff. saw da magnificient white tigers, da e n o r m o u s, g i g a n t i c, dinosaurs-like crocos in water just send a chill down everyone spine.. xp polar bears, da cute lil' baby rabbits that's of palm-size.. everything was cool, just tiring and thirsty..lols. =D jus hope dat baby enjoyed herself.. blog again. ;)


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Sunday, September 25, 2005
 quizes..

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Thursday, September 22, 2005
 i've got a peep at my path.. =)

heyos..firstly, wana thank janice for acc mi 2 kbox session [poor her..owaes hafta endure my awful singing..hAaz! dat's why i love her.. ;D] and also acc me to cut my hair yesterday..thanks ger! you are da best..so feel free to ask me acc you k! ;) went to hair studio @ toa payoh for a change..and it turns out pleasant..love da lady! she gave me a half body massage when washing my hair..hAaz! =p i really needed it..my god i've got stiff neck after those late night 'oil-burning' for exams..lols! ;p

ok..this is gonna be a short entry cos' i'm so freaking tired, after attending a whole day council training, learnt a lot of stuff btw..had lotsa fun! =) after that went running k..4 rounds straight, 1.6 km without stopping..woohoo! proud of myself..maybe because it has got nice weather with fresh air after some heavy pouring earlier on.. sweat like mad! felt so healthy.. suddenly i felt i'm addicted to running..duhz.. -.-" i've never been so exciting about running like i am today in the past..but i'm so tired, i wana slim down..i wan candy's legs and siew yen's hips! hahas! xp so sorry gers..i dont think there's anything on my body that you desire.. hohoho! buay ta han le..nites! zZz..


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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
 smile in my solitary death..

why do i feel like i can live alone?

maybe because i'm naturally incompetitive, politically incompetent
living everyday with politics and awful pretence

hiding every feeling behind every expression
spending each minute with meaningless reality

witness the lost of trust and humanity
be in the war between souls

at the end of the day
i'm so.. so.. tired.

all my life
wishing for friends,

love,

care,

prince,

dream,

fantasy,

but now. .
please let me die in peaceful solitary.

i will smile in my solitary death because life is not perfect
and i had the most perfect memories in my own imperfect path.

p.s dont worry friends, i just need to get these out of my heart.. =)


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Sunday, September 11, 2005
 a movie finally to ease my misery..

first and foremost..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEV! HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY DARIUS!

heyhey!! hohoho..blogged earlier den i expected, cos' i only cleared 2 papers only..still got 2 more to go..but heck! ;D first n foremost..had a lil' celebration for her with steph n lissa @ crystal jade kitchen. thanks 4 da treat bev! ;) had lotsa fun..walking around, going crazy n taking pics..den lissa went home 2 study and da 3 of us watched the longest yard starring adam sandler n chris rock.. omg! finally a movie after so long!! i cant even remember wad's da last movie i watched..it's a misery for a movie freak like me ok..! xp it was really funny and nice..adam sandler, so cute..he's not like very handsome but somehow his sense of humour n da down-to-earth look really is charming.. *thumbs up* =) and there's like 3 WWE wrestlers in it..steve austin, kelvin nash n goldberg..and nelly too! *weet* i was feeling restless at first cos' only slept for 2+ hrs da night before, to study for OOP..but after da movie, woo! felt so much better cos' it's so cool.. i just found out it's re-make of a 1974 movie i think.. =D but it's $9.50, i wouldnt bear to pay that amt if i've not watched movie for a long long time.. -.-"

anyway, after movie..bev went home n met lissa again to go a farewell party @ reine's house, cos' reine and manisha leaving for UK to study uni..all da best gers! :) gonna missed them.. had a lil' gathering with sec sch buddies there..val, junni, lyd, reine, ish, sa, steph, me, tan.tan, boon, barry, loo, darren, fred, phyoe, whammy n jason..love them to bits! =p wad a day..and today..sleeping day of cos'! hehez..eat n sleep only..feel so fat! O^.^O watched da movie Big Fish and MIB II just now..cool! hmms..holiday nearing, and there's like so much things happening..from tmr to tues, i'm going 2 study with frens..den wed n thurs, last 2 papers n thurs aft exam sharon's chalet, friday sentosa n saturday got smth on also..shoot! cant remember..hahaZ! ;p shall end here..blog again! nights-

p.s. to lil' junior: cheer up man! things dun always go our way..most importantly, you must hang on and go thru' it, learn smth from it, about things, about yourself and people around you..i'm always here ya.. take care! =)




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Friday, September 02, 2005
 open up your heart..

heyo! saw my title? actually i was talking about project superstar[jue dui SUPERSTAR].. a lot of people say what the result kelong la, saying that it's all rubbish..i cant help but to blog about it, now relax and think about it. yes, kelly did better than kelvin yesterday night, dont you think it's kinda expected cos' he's visually handicapped. if kelly is under a lot of stress bcos' while performing for thousands over people, den it's double stress for kelvin.. i know most of you think that, this is still a competition, the good ones should still stay and we cant simply let him in because we sympathize him but it happens..even in s'pore idol when jeassea got kicked out in the 1st round.. but hey, he did had a great voice and he worked hard like any other contestants if not, double hard..you can see him trying to improve.

this is just a competition la, whoever wins doesnt determines da future, look @ clay and ruben.. anyway, if winning this competiton means a lot for a normal person like you and me, imagine how much it mean to someone like kelvin, who has probably gone thru' so much misery and hardship in his life.. open your heart and look beyond people.. there's no need for names calling or hurtful words..be happy that you have more nice songs and good singers coming up.. i'm nobody to comment on anything..but at least i say what i really felt in my blog.. *blehs! =p

ok..enough of superstar, no school today! yeahs! =D to think i'm blogging, this should be the right reason..hAaZ! =) hmmz..dun feel like studying yet..heheZ! so jus laze around and maybe go running later? ;) btw, i've got this combination of sweet dream and nightmare yesterday night.. omg! come to think of it..i've been using my msn nick, sugar demon for my gdf project and people have been calling me that a lot recently.. -.-" it's suppose to be a logo of good and bad to symbolise the good and evil side of chocolates for an interesting contrast.. :D i think it's getting into me sia..i just had a really sweet dream 1st den a terrible nightmare.. >.< haiz..TTM[think too much] again.. xp btw, in case you are wondering how my logo looks like, i've posted it.. ;) shall stop here..ciaoz!

p.s. good luck to all those having exams..ganbatte! =)











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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
 exam period coming..[something keep happening to me..] ; )

heyhey.. haven been blogging again, and wont be able to blog for da next few weeks..cos' exams are coming.. darn! -.-" actually nothing to update la, just that i have been really tired nowadays, for 2 afternoons, i slept till the next morning..when i'm supposed to take a 2 hr nap.. >.< damn tired can, body energy fluid all used up liao..have been skipping class too..heheZ! ;p now i am @ eGarage, i just skipped my OOP, had lunch and blogging now..hoho! i'm a bad student.. xp

recently, frens around me like to "match" me different guys..like d i a o z! -.-" so i would like to say that, i SWEAR i don't like anyone or have any crushes.. so stop it! stop putting me with some other guys.. -_-" i still wana be a free bird for now.. =p like many of you know, i'm that i-believe-in-fate type of girl..i duno why, maybe because there's nothing that i can trust when it comes to relationship, i can't even trust myself la..i'm like a dumbo when it comes to relationship..and i'm fine with that.. hahaZ! =D i realised that i've been thinking too much, will someone just SHOOT me in the brain..lolz!

something keep happening to me, da same thing..it happened @ work, it happened now @ student council..hahaZ! wana know what? last time when i was working while waiting for poly admission, there's oso about 4 friends, same age group working with me.. some with bf, some without..but the point is they all end up with a bf..hahaZ! ; D and my other colleagues keep asking, "eh..what happen to you? when are you gonna bring back one?" i was like -.-" and now in EX-CO, 4 gers including me, all got bf AGAIN except me..hahaZ! just when you think i mind while typing this, i'm do not..just find it very interesting and crazily funny! XD maybe last time, i do mind but now, TRUST ME! not anymore.. =) friends..relax, doesnt mean i'm gonna turn crook and be a les or avoid guys..lolz! for the last time, i assured u all i wont be a lesbian[so dun worry steph..i still wana to talk to you about our boys somewhere near in the future] ; ) alright stop here..take caree ppl..ciaoz! :)


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Thursday, August 25, 2005
 never felt like that before..

hey.. it has been ages since i last blogged.. again, so many events have happened.. in school, from EX-CO sub-comm application forms, to interviews then to selecting them and having the interaction day @ tanjong beach..hmmm..exciting! we had loads of fun together with games, sabo, jokes, laughters, sea water -.-", the hiding away from rain more than once [2 x -.-"] n etc.. ;) before all these was assignments and more assignments and more assignment deadlines.. @_@ my blogging just hafta stop when it's assignment week and test/exam week.. =)

tonight i had a feeling that i've never felt before..i felt nothing. this is not nonsense and it's not bcos i think too much.. was supposed to be a bit angry cos' waited for fellow ex-co members so long..but then, thru' out the whole dinner, they thought i was angry or something..and i actually search within me[ya..i know it sounds dramatic..] i felt nothing..not angry, not lonely, not upset, not sad nor happy or wadsoeva..my facial expression wasn't sad, i didnt smile nor frown..it's really expressionless to me.. my whole bus journey back home, i was feeling n o t h i n g..really no feelings at all..the most influential power of music can't make me feel anything either.. actually it's not a bad thing..just very calm and peaceful.. :)

hAaZ! i can just imagine the blur faces and question marks popping above your heads after reading this..have been blogging about something that no one other than me, can understand..but this is what it is all about isn't it? i didnt create a blog for other people..it's for m y s e l f.. ;) this is the second time i felt my life is changing again..let's see how far it'll take me.. btw, have been listening to this chinese song called, 'Zhi Jue' by Tong En..i think the lyrics really described the woman i wana be..check it out, it's nice.. *!thumbs up* off to bed..niTeZz! -.-..ZzZzz

p.s. guys..sorry to have spoil ur mood, i wasn't angry or sad..really.. =)


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Monday, August 08, 2005
 haiz..wad a day..

i'm stuck in sch now, waiting for ChengLiang to go yu ting's hse for her birthday celebration.. some unhappiness in da middle n skipped lunch.. -.-" busy with gdf, missed bleach.. piangs! i lazy to type so everything short form la k.. later gotta go interview people..*arHhh!* i duno wad i'm typing..stop here. happy birthday ting-ma! *hugs-

personal note: Yes, I was angry, I was pissed. Partly bcos’ of ur attitude, and mostly bcos’ u kept everything to urself, I know u r troubled, how I wish u’ll tok 2 me, I hope u’ll approach me n not da other way round..i’m always ready to hear my friends out..no matter wad I’m doing, I’ll stop. I’m angry that u jus gif dat heck care attitude n make urself cranky and moody all day, n affect ur work, what’s more, all of us are overloaded with assignments, makes me even more worried can..if u r upset, I’m not happy too. U starved, so I’ll starve too.. dat’s who I am, if I cant do anything to help my friend, I’ll just follow her sufferings even though I know it’s stupid. I could have flare up just now, but I’m glad I didn’t, cos it would be so much harder to tok things out then. it’s not that we don’t care, but if u wana hide everything behind dat attitude, dat face..den wad can we do? I hope u can tink it through..meanwhile, take care.


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Sunday, August 07, 2005
 realisation of heaven's kindness..

hi all! cant believe the first few chapters of my 18th life was crazy..first stuvked with projects, completed one but more to come..cleaning up da clubhouse's room, meetings and dining with fellow ex-co mates and den celebrated my di's b'day..had lotsa of stress and fun! nowadays, i start to notice and observe people looking at me, not da eileen that i tried to wrapped in fancy clothes and accessories but just me, dat wear slack and with messed up hair.. i dont get it..but i cant be bothered right now.. my body is drained of its energy juice.. a lil' sick and tired of how things are, how i look, how i act.. i wana change again..not to someone that i'm not, but to da eileen that's different ya.. =) bcos' da eileen now duno how fortunate she is, how kind heaven treat her..so i wana be someone that not only know myself, but someone who will show myself.. wish me luck.. :) take care while being zombies, doing assignments ya.. ;) ciaoz!


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Monday, August 01, 2005
 da best 18th birthday i could ever have..!!

heyhey! although i felt so lazy..i but i must blog, i told myself i must blog! there so much emotions running in me now..i felt so touched and happy! i really feel like crying now..*ahHhh!* jus da previous entry..i was like so sad and dont feel any excitement at all..*arHhH!* how could u eileen..! all my frenz spend so much effort, planning da celebration..and remembered by birthday, sending me their wishes thru' sms, testimonial, blog..[maj: da song is never lame, cos u wrote it..i sweared i love it! cos it's specially for me rite? ;D ] how could u not be excited..i just feel so thankful now, until i post a bulletin on friendster for all u guys..go read it ya.. =) ace-J, although da celebration had some "problem", but i really enjoyed it! took neoprints with CaSiLda n ace-J @ cine den had dinner with ace-J, jRayden & SinEe @ tanglin mall..den went ahead & had heart-to-heart chat with ace-J.. =) you guys make it da best 18th birthday for me, simple and sweet, dat's all i need.. i love you guys!

To all my friends: no words can describe how thankful i am, every sms, testimonial, present & all da love make me realise how fortunate i am..arHhhh! being emotional again.. =p i just felt blessed la..thank you all.. =) moments ago i just felt that my life is so damn screwed, all da projects, meetings, bad results..but u guys just keep mi going on & i'm so ready to do my stuff again..i'm not exaggerating k, it's true..hopefully, every god ever exist in this world bless every single one of you..


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Sunday, July 31, 2005
 happy birthday eileen..

yupz..it's now, my 18th birthday..smth that i look forward to, and expect to be smth "big"..but it seems so normal after all..somehow, i dun feel da excitement at all.. so much things happened recently, happy, unhappy, tears, laughters, music, celebration, test, meetings, ndp, concert...so much so much..but i just dont have the strength or da energy to list them all out..i'm tired, physically drained, keep falling asleep in class..wad has happen to me? i duno..later i'm going out with frenz..i jus dont have da mood or da drive to think of what to wear, where to go, what to do..in fact, i actually i wish to spend this birthday alone..but i dun wana disappoint all my frenz.. maybe later is gonna be better.. i hope..jus wana thnk all da people for da present and celebrations.. =)


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Thursday, July 21, 2005
 the worst C.T. ever.. -bleahs! =p

Yoz...ok jus a quick entry before i lose all my 'customers' [apparently ppl stop visiting my blog cos' dey got sick and tired of reading the same entry every visit..pai seh! ;p] ok jus cleared OOP(Object-Oriented Programming *thumbs down*) and DB(Database*thumbs down down down*) .. OOP was ok, DB was so screwed up! say wad 65% theory, 35% practical..i go memorise da theory only 40 marks, and da practicals 4 statements 60 marks! *aRhHhh!!* >.< i was kinda demoralised initially, but heck..to me, results are not everything..believe it anot, it's up to you.. i'm not the studying type anyway, jus quite good @ memorising..so classmates, you guys think too highly of me.. ;D jus happy that DB are of 20% nia..i'll buck up! who dun wana do well right..so everyone jia you, ganbatte! friday going out with ex-colleagues..yeahz! mhmb concert coming...anyone still wan tickets, come find mi ya..$5 only n guaranteed the best finale ever! ;) gtg chiong NF le..dUhZ! -.-|| niTeZ all... =)


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Sunday, July 17, 2005
 hmmmz...erm...no title in mind? =p

hEyaZ..i cant believe it, 1 week term break is coming to an end, tmr is my first paper..programming! -.-"' well..i guess time flies this time bcos' more than half the time i was sleeping in da bed, drinking medicine..feeling really sick. >.< sigh.. well anyway, finally met sHaron! wOohOo.. ;D it was yday with aMelia, SinEe, jRayden and jAhrell..yupz! had dinner with them @ tpy. it was rather interesting cos so much emotions felt in such short time[few hrs]..we felt happy, insane, bored, funny n a lil' sad n frustration? lolz.. and jAhrell, that was a success, i felt really comfortable toking to sHaron, doesnt seems like we are meeting for the first time, she's so friendly and cute i shld say..hahahaZ!

duno why..cant seems to concentrate at all, i just started studying OOP this morning 2 am..i'm so slacked, kill me please! *sHoot ME!* dont mind me people, i know whatever i type now is so dumb and lame, felt weird lately..it's either a lot or no one, if you duno what i'm toking about is normal..hahaZ! =p hmmz...just looking forward to so much events..all da common tests, a gathering with ex-colleagues, the last concert of my band, band dinner, my 18th birthday..well, i guess i'll stop here..gotta go back 2 mug.. good luck for common test people..*take care all- =)
p.s. aMelia, i'll never mean to neglect you, please hang on ya..you are so close to freedom..we are all behid you! :)


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Thursday, July 14, 2005
 hugging the toilet bowl..puke puke puke..

woke up 0630 this morning, suppose to go for ushering duties for graduation day this morning, who knows i vomited..i was like praying to recover from illness today la..instead it got worst.. -.-" dad sent me to school, tot i can tahan..in da end..deehh! wrong answer, i vomited again in school..gotta miss the photo-taking session, and the graduation thingy..felt so bad leaving the duties to the other guys.. >.< took a cab home n rest..i just felt better when i reached home.. =) POMP! i went straight to bed..how long must this sickness go on, 6 days le.. very long nvr get sick le, once sick so jialat.. -.-|| let's tok about something happy.. ;D

yesterday was so fun..had so much fun with my sec sch classmates, i miss them so much! met them @ city hall mrt..was elated to see so many of the guys turn up. :) let's see whether i can remember all of them, hAntu, bArry, dArren, pHyoe, jOshua, aNthony, fRedy, bOon+gf-tRicia, sPencer, wHammy, tAntan, lIssa, sTephanie, rIni, mI and of cos' the reason why we gathered, sHanti! =D had a shared dinner @ glutton square..stingRays, satays, fishballSoup, friedHokkienMee, friedKuayTiao, friedOystersOmelette n chickenWings..we shared among 15 people la..really fun! *thumbs up* :D den we took lots and lots of photos together, groups, pairs, candid, with formation and wad have you..so much laughters and fun! i jus miss times like this.. i love this grp of buddies..cos' there's no gers or guys..jus bruddars and sistars! ;) well, dat's abt it for this entry..tata!

p.s. bon voyage sHan..visit us soon ya! *hugs-


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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
 get well..i must! ;)

hEyoZ! hmmz..sick for like..*counting* about 4 days.. spent a lot of time sleeping, drinking + swallowing medicines..feeling much better now! but felt guilty cos nvr do any revision or wadsoeva..but it's not like i'll do anything if i was well, i'm a last minute kinda person.. i'm changing can..give me time! ;p it has been raining nowadays..perfect weather with no disturbance[sis+dad: go work, bro: school, wAahaAz! *evil*, mum: sleep] i have da whole room to myself..tada tada.. :D but i keep having a feeling dat i should be busy now too many stuff scheduled..band prac, grad day, workshops.. -.-||

time to record my things-to-do list again, my notepad is running of papers..hahaZ! finally can change new notepad, i duno it's just something about notepads and me..ok wadeva ;D sHanti's going back tmr, i'll miss her.. =) got band concert coming up..my life's buzzing right now..ok maybe not right now cos i'm still sick, but from thursday onwards, hopefully i can recover and do my stuff.. my blog is almost dead, i must change my blogskin..there goes, another things in my TTD list..dUhz! -_-" good luck to everyone taking common tests, dont get sick cos' it sucks! like totally..so yupz..take care all.. *hugs-


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Monday, July 11, 2005
 nMoEw = bad cough, sore throat, muscle ache, headache n a lil' feverish.. ='(

toking abt cant fall sick in da previous entry..here i am, sick like duno wad la...dying soon. ='( all started last friday, no school but hafta reach dere by 11 am to meet da bbq planning comm to go buy all da food. eRic cant make it, so aDe, SiPeng,aLvin, YongJia and me went 2 turf city de GIANT buy food..fun la but tiring, keep bickering with aLvin..lolz! =D however, still must thnk him and YJ for helping.. :) after shopping, we took a cab and unload everything @ my house..hahaZ! seriously, whenever ppl ask me where i live, i'm very reluctant to tell them bcos 98% of them will ask me, where izzit, near which building/mrt station? den i mus explain again and again.. -_-|| tiring seh.. anyway, went for band after unloading all da stuff..had fun practising, n den met up with sHanti[jus came back frm meLbourne], PeiSin, lYdia and jUnni together with sTephanie and lIssa.. took lotsa pics! :D

reached home @ 11+, actually wanted 2 start marinating da chicken wings n all..but den i opened da fridge, i saw everything was done..thnks 2 my mummy! ;D or else i dun needa sleep 4 da whole night..seriously, i was damn tired already, energy drained.. =( still, went on to do da salad, clean da prawns and 'poking' them using satay sticks[in da end dey took revenge by piercing their pointy thingy thru my skins..pain leh.. >.<] n also clean da sting rays, after wrapping everything and clearing up, go shower..slept @ 3 plus.. @_@ da nxt day, i was having fever la! *aRhHH!* my mum ask mi dun go, dun go like ke xi leh..prepared le, den miss da fun n oso dey might not noe where i put da food n stuff so i still decided to go la.. i ate 3 kinda medicine b4 i go..syrup for fever and cough + panadol.. -.-" lucky, i went..it was fun and surprisingly, i'm not da only 1 who's sick..so all of us have da "eat now, die later" attitude la..at da end of da bbq, aDe n i were dying oredi x_x lucky mrAndyNg kind enough to give us a lift.. =) btw, mrMelvinTan's son, aAron is so cutee... =p

yesterday i suffered da consequences..so sick! look @ da title and u'll know all da consequences.. >.< almost cough my lungs out and da whole day is just sleep, sleep and more sleep + eat food and medicine whole day.. chinese, western medicine..wonder will i get fat like dat? hahaZ! kidding.. ;p but seriously, i was feeling drowsy da whole day..until now, i'm feeling better other than the bad cough..enough said, wana go drink medicine le.. ciaoz!
p.s. thnks jAnice n sHaron for spending time toking 2 me, and also all the people for their concern.. =)


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Saturday, July 02, 2005
 wad a rough week!

hEyOz..finally da weekend has come to my rescue.. *phew~* this whole week is seriously a rough week for me..packed with meetings/practice from EX-CO and my sec sch band..but i'm not complaining, jus like wad i said in my previous entry, i'm stressing with joy? no..dat's lame..just happy working la.. =) rush my WM project until siao, due on friday which happened to be my jap speaking test..dUhz! >.< from thurs night until friday morning 4.30 am i was working on WM..my fault la, too last minute.. *aH biSh!* @_@ lucky my jap test was ok i think.. =p

jus realised dat nowadays my body has been covered by cuts, bruises, skin-torn wounds dat i dun even know how or when or where i got those..-.-|| anyway, i sleep n sleep for da whole saturday la..wOohOo! ;p dun wana be panda no more..mus really manage my time sia.. later gotta study or else i'll feel guilty doing nth on saturday.. :) next week, got a series of events waiting for me still..hmmz..cant fall sick! jus talked to cHarmaine, my beloved junior..and i felt i know her so much better after this heart-to-heart chat.. :D feeling really happy now, got another fren to share my secrets and emotions.. i jus treasure friendship la huh..

well i guess dat's all for this entry..take care everyone.


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Monday, June 27, 2005
 exhausted with joy.. =)

heyhey..had my first student council meeting, it was really fun wif mr bRendonLam and mr aNdyNg .. =D got to know more friends..yEahz! felt very comfortable talking with them..=) however, got alot of events coming up..alot of planning and discussion coming up..i know i'm gonna be quite busy with my studies and all da Ex-Co stuff..but at least i'm living each day with meanings..hAaZ! :D that's what i mean exhausted with joy..dUhZ! felt so retarded now..hahaZ! ;p needa rush for WM project now..laterr.. :)


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Sunday, June 26, 2005
 life is full of ups and downs.. =)

hEyaZ..da starting of my weekend till now has been like a lil' roller-coaster ride..a happy and exciting one! =D first, on friday..i was released 2 hrs early from my jap class[happy =)], was told to collect my laptop aft 3 weeks+ of under repair.. however, when i'm supposed to try whether it works anot, it didnt even have any image on da screem when i on it..[sad =( n er..a lil' disappointed ='(] so in da end i have to get a loan set, unfortunately it comes with another bag..ya..you bet i'm carrying 2 bags like an idiot walking ard.. -_-"' [sad n DiaOz =(]

at da same time, the assistant teacher-in-charge so to speak, of da student council committee election called and said wana see me. [scared and uneasy ='s] then was brought to mr bRendon lam's office and before i know it, i am going thru' an uninformed interview by both lecturers..[aRrgHh! tension!! >.<] hahaZ..i was freaking nervous with both of them looking at me and asking questions la..i'm like err...erm..ahh..[shoot!! >.<] however, i think i managed to get my point of views and feelings across to them truthfully.[finally smth 2 be a lil' happy abt :D]

da truth is, i wasn't one of da elected 12 committee, but they still include me and another member as nominated committee [happy n excited! =D] regardless whether you are nominated or elected, you do da same thing, difference is that nominated committee dont get da right to vote if voting is required in any committee meeting.. still, we can still influence and get our opinions across to others.. honestly, i dont mind or care whether it is nominated or elected, i am truely happy i still get to be part of it..bcos i think it's gonna be an important turning point of my life, as serious as it sounds..i know it's gonna be really fun and valuable experience! ;)

saturday, went to meet with jAnice for kbox session in da morning, hEeZ! poor ger, sick still come with me..and i still failed her with my off-form performance on that day..hAaAZ! pai seh pai seh.. [guilty and crazy =p] thank you for accompanying me..wad a good start of my day! *thumbs up!- in da afternoon, meet up with *jOjo, kElvin, cAsilda, mArilyn, cHarmaine, cHengLiang, together wif myBro to celebrate jOjo's sweet 16th birthday! [thrilled and delighted :D] meet up @ far east to have lunch and shop abit, shaped my eyebrows[:p] took 'mass' neoprints then to TCC for coffee and some cakes..[yummy! ;p] after da coffee, chocolate, fudge, cheesecake..we were all so high and went ard taking pics with each others with all da camera phones we had..[hopped up! ;D]da whole occassion is just simple, sweet and fun! we really enjoyed ourselves!

all right, now you see why i put that title up there? *gRinZ- well, after all that emotional roller-coaster ride..back to homework, assigments and sketches..bOohOo! =(] haAaZ! Ganbatte every one..enough for an entry..take care all..tataZ! :)


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Friday, June 24, 2005
 hmmmz..

why i finally blog u asked? hehez..it's beacuse i felt guilty enough, not to mention that i'm busy and quite stressed up nowadays..hoho! =D it's been weeks since i blog..i expect that after i start school la..i just know myself..hehe! =p anyway, assignments coming liaoz..WM, DB la..and also common tests nearing, omg! i must buck up liaoz..cant let my grades drop eh! talking about grades, congrats stepphhiee!! got 3 for overall performance in QME, not bad not bad..keep it up dearie! ;) nowdays will be quite busy cos' i' proud to say i'm participating for our Monk's Hill Military Band last concert..gotta go for night practice every wed and fri. =)

HoRray!! finally my lappie is done after 1 mth! aRrgHh! cant believe i'm saying this, but i missed my bulky lil' guy..! although heavy, but cant do works without it..wana thank LaO dA for lending me his lappie..arigato! :) cant believe i'm running for student council in my sch of ICT, thinking of it makes me laugh, when i first received an e-mail on it, i couldnt really be bothered n deleted, until i attend da briefing and fill in da application form, go for da interview and yesterday was the voting day, wana thnks my M02 classmates, lecturers and all the people who voted for me, thank you all so much for their support..really appreciate it ya. ;)

later got jap quiz, must memorise all half of the hiragana chart la..cHerie now i know your pain..not easy eh..Ganbatte! ^o^ but hey, at least this weekend i've got something to look forward to, meeting my beloved jAhrell for K session, so long nv sing..all skills rusty liao la! hEex! and then gonna celebrate Jo's birthday, got no idea how much i miss my band members until the recent band camp..wish i could go on more, but need to study for quiz liaoz..niTeZ all! take care.. =)


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Monday, May 30, 2005
 oRh hOr..eileen u lazy piggie!! =p

hMmMz..my laziness act up like a poision again..not blogging..*shakes head* not good! hehez..alright updating now before i start disappointing u guys again.. last week was great! caught madagascar wif ex-colleagues cos it was aH pA's[aka cHin LoOn] last day working in T-EST.. =) btw, on da day itself, i had my very 1st jap lesson... it was fun, my tutor is so friendly n humourous..but i sat alone like a idiot..bleahs! ok back 2 da lil' 'farewell gathering' we had..let's see whether i can remember all ppl who went..1st n foremost, W.O.K.O.P aka aLviN wOnG!! gosh! it's as if i haven seen him for decades as someone got gf liao mah..no time for us! =p hahaZ! jus kidding..! ;D n den from the office, dere's eDmUnD, jOhNsOn, jEnniFeR n bf[sorry until now i still duno his name jEn..lolz! =D], ConStaNcE, aLeX, MinGhUi, sEtH, DaViD n den from outside are cLaRisE [my mummy :p], eMiLy[my meimei], gEepiN..yup! alot hor..my aH pA mahz, sure mus gif face! *winks- ate dinner, fish & co. @ suntec den went for movie, madagascar ..really hilarious la!! :D shld go watch n hav a good laugh but pity it's too short, ard 1 n a half hr or less..so watch for 7 bucks! 9.50 not very worth.. =) thereafter, we went for a drink @ coffee bean, where we had lots of 'wars' going on.. well, i had a great time..! thnks edmund for da ride back.. :)

today was tiring..1st time havind tis module called Graphics Design Fundamentals..smth i realli look forward too.. really nice n fun tutor, Mr Ong..but the system sucks la..we got tis 1 module 1 day shit..which means we hav our GDF lecture, tutorial n praticals on 1 day..n it was tiring cos every week we hafta come out with smth..like a weekly assignment kinda thing den gotta present @ da end of the day..but time constraint la 2day.. *SiaNz* -_-" but still i'll put my heart n soul in it..cos it's smth i realli like.. =) anyway, gotta meet hUijUaN n fReDy today..so happy! so long nvr c them..hope dey r doing well.. still got a tutorial to do for web mastering, n oso my stupid laptop speakers not working, still under repair.. -.-" i spent my weekend sleeping and slacking @ home..seems like tis weekend pass super fast! i wana exercise..badminton!! swimming!! any takers? pls ask mi out.. ;D alright..gotta go.. sayonara!
p.s. oh! oh! btw, today is sTeVeN gErRaRd's birthday! hahaZ! ;D happy birthday! wOohOo! =p


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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
 school starts today!!

heyoz..school finally started..tso tired! n so sian la..da lecturers r fine la..but still very sian, end sch @ 5.. came home, eat dinner, watch tv, wipe floor, shower n now computer.. nothing much 2 blog lor.. tmr gonna watch movie wif baby.sAleha, thursday wif her and lAo.dA..den friday wif ex-colleagues..wOohOo! movie marathon.. well..gotta go slp early...sch tmr! niTeZ aLl..


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Friday, May 20, 2005
 rock my music world..!!

hEyoZ! now chilling @ bEv's house with sTePh..cool. listening to 98.7 with top 20 countdown.. heard so many new songs..just heard that backstreet boys cd is going to be a 'dual' disc.. in this case, it means when you put the disc on your cd player, it's a cd..and when you put the other side on a dvd player..it's a dvd, how cool is that!! =D i'm a bsb fan btw.. ;) alright..back to hearing all the nice songs..look out for these songs : marionRaven - End Of Me, Coldplay - Speed Of Sound, Lifehouse - You And Me, kellyClarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes, greenDay - Holiday, mcFly - All About You, howieDay - Collide, theRooster - Come Get Some, backstreetBoys - Incomplete, gavinDegraw - Chariot, gwenStefanie - Hollaback Girl .. really nice and cool songs.. check them out ya! got up early this morning and go to school [AGAIN!] thanks cHeNg LiAnG for accompanying me.. =) i'm such a fool!! >.< long story anyway.. went back to mhmb..with DaRyL and bRo was there too.. then had a sinful 'feast' @ newton circus..feel so fat now! -bleahs whatever.. =p school starting soon..sianz! gotta study real hard and live life to the max. man..ciaoz!

-butt pinching and boobs molesting coming thru' *gRoSs but fUn- [live with it!] ;p


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Thursday, May 19, 2005
 sick and excited? *confused* ;p

heyhey..yesterday went back 2 school to collect lappy, and paid 39 bucks actually is mummy paid de..heheZ! :D flu, blocked nose..must be stupid Lissa passed it to me.. -_-" watched KOH[Kingdom Of Heaven] AGAIN @ cine..lolz. but this time with Jahrell[Janice you gotta stick to one name man..too many nicks le! hahaZ! ;p] and Cherie..surprisngly i enjoyed it so much more this time, maybe i couldn't understand the story fully and the names of the characters well the first time.. to think that i couldnt bear to pay 7 bucks to watch it again initially..lolz! =D after which, we went to take neoprints..but the stupid machine got something wrong i think..no time for us to decorate de! >.< went to McCafe to chill..the frappe there are to watery.. -.-" anyway, we managed to talk alot about sexuality, boyfriends[none of us have any.. =) ], friends, loneliness, emotions..so much, i just enjoyed the conversation and the day so much..thanks gers! :)

oh btw, my pancake was a success! hohoho.. =p at first it doesnt work cos' my mum bought self-raising powder instead of baking powder..not her fault, the uncle there said it's the same.. -.-" but still..it looks as good as McDonald's breakfast, but not soft enough..need for improvements.. feel so weird now, there's funny feeling in my stomach.. dont feel like eating and stuff.. =( one lesson learnt yesterday: dont consume too much sugar at night..i had mocha frappe, Cherie had latte frappe and Jan had double chocolate frappe..and we were like feeling so 'high' and excited..lolz! actually it kinda make us hyper-active..never felt this way before..hahaZ! ;D well..maybe go swim with Steph later but i'm still down with a lil' flu so see first bahz..stop here for now, ciaoz! good day!


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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
 no more football idols for awhile..!! >.<

hEyOz..i think i've got another addiction, sweating and exercise addiction..it just feel so good..to sweat and you will feel so relief and 'healthy' in a way after you sweat. lolz. =) been doing house work again yesterday, i even asked mum to buy a pair of gloves for me so that i can wash the dishes n etc..something is wrong with me man! but my mum gonna be happy.. :) anyway, i better stop fancy about any football idols..no more Gerrard addiction, he's like engaged and he have a daughter! hahahaz..u might be wondering, 'it's none of your business eileen! not like you can be his girlfriend even he's not engaged' lolz..got that right, but if you fancy a idol whom marital status goes from single to attached, you like got this kinda weird feelings, worst if their partner is some celebrity you hate! hahahaZ! ;p i'm nuts..now i know how you feel cHeRie, when you were kinda 'agitated' when you told me Orlando Bloom is engaged with Kate Bosworth. =D well..nvm if you love that idol, should be happy that he has got his happiness..lalala. ;D finally got all my ingredients..cos mummy shopped for me! :D gonna try later, but no maple syrup..maybe buying later.. well, blog again. ciaoz! =)


__dreaming.away** 1:03 PM

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Monday, May 16, 2005
 new 'self-employed' maid at home..

hey..look at the title..and i'm telling you now, i'm the maid darn it! hahAaZ! =D yesterday wasnt going out mah..so decided to help mummy with her house work..wipping the floor [take note: it's wipping not mopping, with no help from any tools.. -.-"] yupz..was wearing a pair of pink gloves, taking a pail of soapy water and a rag..squating position, and using all my strength to clean and clean..my STUPID BRO! keep shouting.."eh..faster la maria!" you bet i'm gonna kick his ass soon enough! =p my mum said.."you wear the gloves and wipe the floor like that, wait people thought i employed new maid..hahaZ!" like mother, like son..i'm gonna kick her ass too! hahahaZ.. ;D wiped the living room and the 2 bedrooms..actually i jus wana exercise and maintain my weight..hAaZ! ;p sweat alot, good! so i wont feel so guilty when eating.. =)

speaking on eating..i found a pancake recipe, wanted to cook for my family maybe tomorrow, must buy ingredients first..so excited! they are all gonna be my guinea pigs..waHhahaZ! *eViL* although it's a simple recipe la.. but who knows, cooking is like chemistry dude..chemical reaction can be dangerous and nasty.. heHeeZ! school starting in 8 days..*SiaNx* wana rock and roll more before school start..wana watch AmityVille Horror, Madagascar, Star Wars Episode III..well, shall see about that. stop for now. take care people.. blog again.


__dreaming.away** 1:54 PM

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Saturday, May 14, 2005
 what the hell..where the hell..

raining sooo heavily now..exchange of harsh thunder and lightning..*aHhH!!* >.< went to tanglin cc with bEv, sTePh, wEncHuN and mR yEo, actually still got my bRo, but just as i expected, he cant wake up..P.I.G! what to do..it runs in the family..hAaZ! ;D the cc looks so grand and nice, like some ex club, so many people contribute thousands of bucks to build it..of course la! look at my pathetic PeK kiO CC..but i still love it! hAaZ! =) felt so outdated with the latest songs, haven been listening to radio...so catching up now..98.7 *niCe* :) swam with bEv n sTepH yesterday @ the aMeRicaN's club [thnks sTepH] it was a fun experience, took lotsa crazy pictures but kana sunburnt la! pain n itchy still.. =( saw a hottie, the one that bEv cant stop starring at cos' his side view looks like tOm crUisE.. *winks-

by the way, after badminton today, went to bEv's house to bathe and took a 2 hrs nap..so song! [thnks bEv for the hospitality and the slipper..like wadevaa..hAaZ! ;p] after which, we went down to town, meet up with sTepH and FiLaN for awhile..then go eat aJiSeN! stupid bEv..too addicted to it! hahaz.. anyway, went home straight..tired. got this irritating blog problem, cant post properly, maybe because of my smileys.. whatever. 'suffered' from Gerrard Addiction recently..hAaZ! he's like so cute can..my liverpool hero! ;) my bRo and friends cant stand me for that la..hEck! i love gErRaRd bAbY! *in fantasy* bRo and siS not home yet..it's my world..wAhahAz! blog again. =)


__dreaming.away** 11:15 PM

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Friday, May 13, 2005
 crazy crazy crazy..

alright..my blog has lost all its readers..so who am i writing to? M.E. of course.. ;) ok..my house was under renovation for 2 weeks+, hate it! hot..dusty..sweat n frustrations..>.< but anyway, because of that couldn't go online for 2 weeks+..so to all my dears who read my blog..dont get mad ya, i apologise for my laziness. i'm telling you this is one of the busiest holidays i ever had..a busy and fulfilling one :) meeting up with different groups of friends..wOohOo! *winks- i have to like make small notes to remember all the events in my handphone.. first thing first, cutting my hair and changing my hair is like a new hobby for me..hAaZ! if only i have more bucks to do so.. dyed and cut my hair, so sad..i didnt like it, i like my previous one much better! people criticize la..but i think i 've cooped well..it's like you cant undo it dude! ;p funny thing the hair stylist ask me whether i'm a crook..as in whether i'm a les..i'm not ok, so fellow girlfriends stop delibrately making me look like one please! hAaZ.. =p

well one thing i'm quite happy about is that i've been exercising and doing some sports..WoO! cycling for hours @ east coast with ex-colleagues..end up butt pain, muscle ache but fun make it all worthwhile yea.. =) and also badminton with different people..[muscle 'crisis' aHh!] gym with bIn and bOo..once only though..hAaZ! ;p and also i've got opportunities to do fun stuff like baking with sTePh, LiSsA and RiNi..the first cake i've baked in my life..presentation: 8.5/10 [choco + strawberries] taste: 7/10[soft like brownie] ediblity: 5/10 hahahaZ! sorry sa..gotta face the face and speak the truth..the middle part of the cake not cook la mates..>.< but the sides are nice *YuMmY!* went tanning with JaNiCe and her new poly mate, JeSsiCa..had fun but no difference with the skin colour though..lolz! sorry for spoiling the mood on that day.. =(

i finally got to watch movies..such a torture for a movie freak like me to miss all the great movies because of all the exams earlier on.. -_-" a once in a lifetime experience struck on cHeNg LiAnG and me..wanted to watch Pacifier before i miss it, so when Shaw Tower with CCL, [thanks for being so kind to acc me] went in the theater, it's as if we book the whole theater, apparently we are the only ones there..kinda 'song' la..but a couple joined us shortly. beginning of the movie, names of casts and crews appear and then suddenly the screen black out with a a sound like motor breaking down, on the scene when Vin Diesel was on a speed boat, so in our minds..."Is this part of the move?" and the theater light up..so okkk..it's not part of the movie, the machine broke down..and they refund our tickets, that is not what i want la! i want to WATCH the movie! >.< well..at least a hilarious and unforgettable experience. *winks- :D

have been going around to different cafes, restaurants, eating outlets and have been eating alot..dont know got put on weight a not, weighing machine spoiled..hopefully it balance with my exercising.. *pRaY dAmN hArD* ;D went out for steamboat with ex-classmates, i miss those guys! *SoBx* :( had a super fun time.. :) celebrated cHeRie and aMeLia birthdays..wana thank mR yEo for letting us eat his tofu [dont get it the wrong way..he treat us to coffee and food..that's what i'm talking about.. =D] and LiSsA, let me stay @ her house and cook me food, i love you! hEeX! okok..no more craps, long enough..ciaoz for now. take care people..school starting soon *bOo!* =p


__dreaming.away** 2:13 AM

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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
 WaD a DaY!!

hEyhEyZ! i'm back..alrite been realli busy aft exams..hang out wif frenz, going 4 gatherings..going bak 2 sec sch band..n yday was their SYF. woke up n mit up wif CCL, bOo, LiSsA together wif my bro.. we went 2 far east, looking 4 small gifts 4 our band members.. end up 5 of us got 35 friendship bands 4 da whole band, hope dey rmb our motto, "Together As One".. sad 2 say we r going 2 merge into bhss in 2007.. =( anyway, we went 2 sch n help them make their hair, tie, blazers n make sure dey look neat n smart..n dey do look neat n smart.. *winks- looking @ them..n tinking of da time when dey r sec 1, it's like our babies growing up liaoz..hahahaZ! ;D abit dramatic la..bt it's true loh..it's an emotional day 4 all of us, da last time Monk's Hill Military Band going 4 SYF, marking the last few pages of our history in MHSS.

we boarded on 1 bus..the spirit was high..da members were singing their own parts of emerald isle, having laughters n fun. n finally we reached SCH n saw lotsa bands dere.. all of us r realli nervous..seriously i'm like even more nervous den dey r..bt mus keep cool.. dere dey go, yuhua was before us -_-" n den dey r up on stage, looking smart n watching n listening 2 them..i tink dey played well, nvr let any1 of us down..seriously, dey shld b proud.. love their tone n blend. our band is da smallest band on dat day..33 people, but nvr sound lousier den any other big bands..da 1st note struck their presence. den da most nerve-wrecking part came, da result, dey got a silver, yupz..we did dropped frm a gold 2 a silver, so wad..we got a high silver, dey sound alot better den any other silver bands.. :) however, dey cried, dey were upset..oMg! i need 2 hold bak my tears, bt my eyes were red n filled wif tears seeing them at dat state.. i cried not bcos we got a silver, i cried bcos dey r sad..

our day sux..da whole pm session got only 1 gold n 1 gold with honours, anyway..we boarded da bus, on da way back..dey were quiet wif disappointment n sadness written all over their faces.. dey shldn't be..back 2 da band room, mr yeo start toking 2 them..n told them dey shld b happy n..HE CRIED!! ;p it's a big deal bcos he's not a person dat will cry in front of any1 lohz..hahaZ! i mus record tis down..n mrs poh cried too.. >.< i was holding my tears back until 2 of them cried..my tears oso roll down my cheek liaoz.. if u tink i'm gonna stop here, u r wrong! cos da fun part is coming..da whole band plus da alumnis + mr yeo went 2 eat..before we left da sch, deafening thunders n huge lightnings attack..oMg! everywhere got trees lohz..damn scary, b4 we cld reach newton mrt, it start raining like mad!! n umbrellas didnt help much.. -.-" all of us kana drenched totally..hahahaZ~! bt we had a good laugh abt it..n every1 is jus having fun [ya..da fact dat we r drenched cld actually create fun..lolz!] went 2 far east n ate burger king..we r like a huge class going 4 excurssion =p glad da rain clear away our heavy emotions n sadness.. wad a day huh.. =) more events r coming up..blog again k. ;)


__dreaming.away** 11:15 PM

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__[`eileen.goh*]
__[`31st.july.1987*]
__[`18+.shi ba shui*]
__[`leo.rabbit*]
__[`chinese.buddhist*]
__[`ngee ann.poly*]
__[`cartoons.freak*]
__[`movie.fanatic*]
__[`lost.gal*]

__sweet.dream*

..family.lover**
..friends.angels**
..bee bee.pet**
..wind.breeze**
..moviez**
..music.mhmb**
..fantasy.stars**
..faith.fate**
..my.pillow**
..beach**
..snow.seasons**
..angels.fairies**
..sun.rise**
..sunset**

__nighmares*

..cheap.guys||
..bitches||
..backstabbers||
..loneliness||
..fights.quarrels||
..helpless.lost||
..teary.nights||
..sad.moments||
..stomachache||
..backache||
..cats.bugs||
..studies.stress||

__dreams.wish*

..hp_+
..clothes_+
..slippers.shoes_+
..wrist.band_+
..hairstyle_+
..necklace_+
..squarish.earrings_+
..sling.baggie_+
..holiday.new zealand_+
..harmony.peace_+
..flying.colours_+
..new.me_+
..LOTR.vcds_+
..cargo.pants_+
..make-up.kit_+
..levi's.jeans_+
..mp3.player_+
..bags.bags_+

__dream.zone*

__dream.angels*

*`[..M]y.journal
*`cherie.ace-[J..]
*`[..B]aby.shirlyn
*`baby.angelin[E..]
*`[..B]aby.saleha
*`whammi[E..]
*`[..F]redy
*`rein[E..]
*`[..L]ydia
*`wen.y[U..]
*`[..M]ajidah
*`regin[A..]
*`[..D]aphne
*`ki[M..]
*`[..X]iao.bai
*`nai.m[A..]
*`[..A]h.gong
*`beverl[Y..]
*`[..K]erui
*`hwee.pen[G..]
*`[..F]annie
*`joj[O..]
*`[..M]ichelle + Kim
*`stephani[E..]
*`[..A]melia.ace-J
*`delici[A..]
*`[..P]arnella
*`angelin[E..]
*`[..B]un
*`amira[H..]
*`[..Y]vonne
*`baby.suth[A..]
*`[..X]ueling
*`son.kelvi[N..]
*`[..J]onathan
*`daddy.her[I..]
*`[..C]asilda
*`linett[E..]
*`[..A]deline
*`junio[R..]
*`[..A]my
*`jiay[I..]
*`[..S]andra
*`tangtan[G..]
*`[..S]tudentCouncil_05
*`jely[N..]
*`[..E]sther
*`kai.yin[G..]
*`[..I]van
*`weiq[I..]

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